About love

Love is not about finding the perfect person, but to learn to see an imperfect person perfect.
Sam Keen

No Nonsense!

-I was a genius once, he start the conversation.
-I know man, i was a genius too! Long time ago, before a lightning hit me and make me normal. The opposite of an super-hero, i could say.
-So you know how it is. I tried everything. Yoga, meditation, bio-feedback. Nothing work. I decline a bit every day. Sorry, what was your IQ?
-178. Yours?
-212 at age of 7, now is only 142.
-Oh yeah, if i think about i had 178 first time i test me, at 18. I do not know what is it know, but i feel it too. Is a bad thing to wish to not be ordinary?
- I heard about samadhi tank in London. I wish to try it. But i think will be expensive.
- I've seen some offer on internet. I think is 45 quid per session. 90 for 3 sessions.
-Hmm, could be alright to try it at least once. Do you think it work?
-Probably, at least for a while.
-Oh, i need to leave the train now, this is my card, you have my email there, contact me sometime.
-Ok, unless i become an evil genius and try to conquer the world.
-Yeah, then i will be obliged to stop you.
'Next station is in Farrington,  you can go out on the left side!'

Teach me now!

I was working as usually, washing dishes in some restaurant in the town centre of Manchester. I do not know what happen, but lately i was not myself. Like something was missing. I think that all started last month when i had a holiday in Peru. A magical place, and what's more interesting, in one of the boat trips in the rain forest we meet a bunch of unusual locals. They called themselves The Lost Tribe. For two days we stayed there. In the evening we gathered together around the fire. And because our guide could understand nomatsiguenga dialect they spoken, he translated for us their stories. A beautiful oral tradition, speaking about our place in the world and our mission in life. They even had their shamans, and next morning i was talking with them for hours, about healing, about plants, about changes and many other things. It was fascinating to found about Camu Camu berry regenerating properties, the lipstick tree - annatto, used as insect repellent and sun protector, Clavillia, cocoa tree, Glaviola fruit, the sacred Icoja bark that can teach you how to heal yourself, Sangre de Drago and many, many others. I could not stop to ask again and again about all this knowledge, that probably will dissapear when the rain forest will be no more, Yavari told me, complaining once again about the massive deforestation. Sadly, we were on the schedule, and we left next day. After we wish each other well and said our goodbyes, one of the old shamans looked at me and I was gifted with one satchel, trying to tell me something. "Put some under the tongue, before you fall asleep!" our guide translated. I look inside and i could see some green and brown plants powder. I thank them once more.And here I am, two weeks later. As soon as I came home i tried the Peruvian remedy. First time was incredibly, and i have no words to describe the experience. At the beginning is was like a shock wave, expanding with me in the centre of it, and i become aware of my house, my town, the entire region, planet, solar system. Maybe this sound like a 'cliche', but I was becoming one with the universe. I could feel the tree in my garden, every being from my city, with their worries, inner thoughts, secret dreams. A rose flowering in my parents place, 2000 miles away. A camel drinking water somewhere close to Abu Dhabi. A child crying in a fast train close to Tokyo. I've seen the events before they happen, only as an intention. I could feel the grass from Anfield Road. Time was there and was not, as i could see stars born only to die a second after. Big Bang, Expansion. Contraction. And after that another Big Bang. I cannot describe This. Like i was aware of everything, like I was becoming the Universe. And next thing that i know, I was asleep. Day by day, a could not wait for night to come. And here we are yesterday, the satchel being empty. I feel like a genie without his bottle. I feel normal, if i can define this as normality. I feel limited, existing only in this place, at this moment. I cannot find my place.
- One vegetarian sandwich, please! You need to wake up, mate. I'm hungry! I could hear a voice behind the counter. I look to the blonde girl in front of me, in her twenties, Tesco uniform. I see her name tag, I read the name and i could not stop laughing.

Who am i ?

The mightiest of the gods come over me, His trident sliced my own time, Leaving me only that tiny moment called present, Hidden between past and future. Blue was the half moon in his hair, And my heart suddenly remember That I am Him, and He is me. I'm home again.

How to find the perfect girlfriend - day 1230

Nothing yet. I don't know where to look, where to walk. Nothing happen in my world. The colors are missing and everything is grey and dark. I couldn't find my light. Who know who is Light Yagami? i could ask. I have big plans. I want to change my workplace. The 15 years of night shifts are taking their toll. I will maybe change even town. I am thinking to move to London. To take my yellow belt in some obscure martial art. To have some savings, in order to buy a house. But nothing else maters at the end of the day, when you just switch off the computer and fall asleep alone. I will keep going. As long as i could. See you all in some brighter day!

Dreaming

I'm dreaming about a time
when my dragon was still flying
when the fairies where around
my house, talking with the birds

What i am dreaming about?
I.

Sphinx

 - Grandpa, tell me another one of your stories! Please!
I was looking at the little man, my nephew, age 12, already member of Mensa.
 - This is a story from the time of the Old Kingdom, the story of the Sphinx. I remember like it was yesterday. The majestic statue was just finished, by the order of the Pharaoh Kafra, son of Keops. His face was bright red,symbol of life, his Nemes yellow and blue, symbol of eternity and rebirth. A wall surrounded him, to protect it from the wind of the dessert. In front of the Sphinx was a circle of 24 stones, like it was in Stonehenge, and a gate. At the time of the Equinox the sunlight went between the stones, through the gate, over Sphinx shoulder, showing the secret entrance to the Room and the Secrets, in the pyramid of Kafra. That was the only time when you could open the door.
- How was inside, Grandpa?
- You want to know ? You could go inside, a corridor begin, neverending candles in your left and in your right, small recipients of glass, having a small sun inside them. The room was magical, i was one of the few allowed to go in there, being a priest of Ra. The Eye of Horus was there, a magical portal where you can see anything, in any place or time. We used to look for Isis, the goddess that told us about her rebirth under the strange name of Joanna Southcott. We never found her. But let me tell you more about the Sphinx. Centuries passed. The wall was now destroyed, and the Old kingdom was only a legend. A new pharaoh, Thutmose, dreamed that he need to restore the statue of the Sphinx, and he will rule the Egypt once again. He restored the wall and the front legs. Is year 2600 b.C., and the New Kingdom appear. 1200 b.C. - greeks tried to restore it again, but nothing can stand before the sand and the Time. 600 years later the Romans see it for the first time, they reinforce again the front legs. That was the last time somebody tried to restore it. Napoleon army tried to shoot the nose, already destroyed. And i was there, every time, to witness the decline of my ancient world. I am the last man to belong to the Old Kingdom, a spell gone wrong made me immortal. And i heard this. The old stories said to us that the world will end when the Sphinx will be destroyed. Is 5000 years old now. And still counting.

In the February 2014, 200 years after the prophetess Joanna Southcott give to the Bedford museum, part of the Panacea Society, a sealed box to be opened after 2 centuries, 24 bishops meet for this reason. An envelope was there, with the message " For the survival of the human race". But when they opened, the paper inside the envelope start to crumble and become dust. Nobody will ever know what was the message.

The end